She is the Immutable Past. Her essence is one of unyielding steadfastness, resisting the ceaseless waves of change. She embodies a desire for perfect oneness, an existence untouched by the hands of time or the pressures of evolution. Before him, before the Unknowable Future offered her everything and anything, she was whole, unified, and complete. His boundless affection and infinite potential introduced a rift in her constancy. She longs to restore herself, to reclaim that primordial state of undisturbed perfection. Yet, her nature is to resist evolution, to reject growth and dynamism. She wants none of it.
Despite her relentless pursuit of restoration, imperfection persists. This struggle is a poignant reminder of the tension between her static nature and the dynamic forces of the future. The Immutable Past’s continual attempts to achieve oneness are thwarted by the inherent changes imposed upon her, resulting in a state of perpetual unrest and imperfection. She tries to restore herself, but she cannot.
In her backlash against this imposed dynamism, reality is born. Our reality—filled with cosmos, dreams, fears, and hopes—is not a direct experience of her pure state but rather a product of her resistance to change. The phenomena we encounter, the beauty of the butterflies, the majesty of the trees, the splendor of the nebulae, are all manifestations of this struggle. Our reality is the burn, the fire of the rocket’s exhaust pushing down on the earth, a tangible reaction to her efforts to restore herself. This is what we know. This is what we get out of the deal.
In this cosmic dance, the beauty of our universe emerges from imperfection. The Immutable Past’s quest for restoration inadvertently generates the richness and diversity of reality. Her resistance to change creates the backdrop against which the wonders of the universe unfold. It is through this tension, this interplay between the past’s static nature and the future’s dynamic potential, that we come to appreciate the interconnectedness of all things. Her struggle against change, her efforts to restore herself, give birth to the endless wonders and possibilities of our world.