This paper formalizes the core quantities we use in class to analyze experience as ratios. The Seat of Witness feels the theatre-like “OO–AAH” (surprise) along a vertical axis; the Participant can add a horizontal load (suffering) when it clings to a pre-actual desire. Everything below is WordPress-safe: equations are dark-mode SVGs.
1) Measurement as ratio; surprise as a log-ratio
We model each moment as a comparison between what happened (Actual,
Why the natural log? It turns multiplicative differences into additive ones (so sequential surprises sum), is unitless, symmetric around 0 (
2) What is Expected? Predictor ⊕ Ideal
Expected blends a predictor
Master/servant rule: ideas belong in the denominator as servants (they inform
3) Desire (pre-actual) and Suffering (post-actual)
3.1 Desire as a directional tilt around Expected
Before the reveal, a motive tilts a Desired value
3.2 Suffering as refusal to update after the reveal
After Actual lands, suffering appears exactly when the Participant keeps consulting
4) The Two-Axis Picture (“OO–AAH” + Off-Axis)
y (vertical) = Surprise:
x (horizontal) = Suffering:
Witness lives on the vertical line
5) The two classroom demos
5.1 Price-is-Right (unit: dollars)
- Reveal:
. - Expected (blend of predictor & ideal): suppose
. - Surprise (Witness):
(pleasant). - Desire (pre-actual): a fairness-tilt wants lower, say
. Encoded by with , . - Suffering (post-actual, if clinging):
, magnitude , energy .
5.2 Navigation (unit: minutes)
- Reveal:
. - Expected (predictor knows it’s Friday 4:15; ideal is free-flow): suppose
. - Surprise (Witness):
(unpleasant). - Desire (pre-actual): “I need to make the meeting,”
(left-tilt around ). - Suffering (if clinging after reveal):
, magnitude , energy .
6) Six statements for the course (formalized)
- Everyone has desires. Pre-actual tilt:
with . - Suffering occurs when you cling to a desire after the reveal. That is
. - Clinging is equivalent to ignoring Actual. You’re using
instead of in judgment or action. - The amount of suffering is calculable. Use
or with . - “Desire is unrealistic.” Desire is not part of the reality ratio; reality uses
. Desire becomes suffering precisely when it tries to replace . - The root cause is an idea trying to actualize. As servant, it helps form
(through ); as master, it tries to enforce and keeps .
7) Emotions: grasping before vs. resisting after
Grasping (pre-actual): worry, anxiety, dread, anticipation, excitement, craving, longing, impatience, hypervigilance, FOMO, over-planning, avoidance, defensive procrastination.
Resisting (post-actual): irritation, frustration, anger, resentment, contempt, guilt, shame, regret, remorse, rumination, disappointment, grief, despair, numbness, fatalism.
Quick classifiers: “What if…” → grasping. “If only… / Should have…” → resisting. Body: buzz/forward-lean → grasping; heat/heaviness → resisting.
8) Practice: returning to vertical
- Name the reveal: state
plainly (one sentence). - Feel the OO–AAH: notice
(up/down around 0). - Check off-axis: detect
. If nonzero, you’re clinging. - Re-seat the idea: “Advise my next move; you don’t edit the past.” Let
. - Act from here: update
with ; use desire to energize the next action, not to rewrite the reveal.
Appendix: alternative desire around Ideal (advanced)
Sometimes we want the “pure template” pull. Define a desire around the ideal:
Then the total tilt around
Read: structural aspiration (how far
Cheat sheet
- Surprise (vertical):
- Suffering (horizontal):
, magnitude or energy - Desire (pre-actual):
- Expected blend:
- Witness:
. Participant suffering: .

